Sometimes I am hyper aware of how messy my notes are - but I don't care because I have to write them. Everyone learns in different ways - I am a kinesthetic learner. That means that more powerful for me than seeing charts (visual learner) and hearing instructions (auditory learner), I learn by doing. When I am occupied while listening or watching - drawing diagrams or taking notes - I retain greater amounts of information. I may never read them again - but I remember because of the act of writing. Good thing - because I can hardly re-read them!
Messy Writing in Client Meetings
This afternoon I was in a meeting with a client and so full of ideas that I wrote "banding" instead of branding and raced across the page to capture as many thoughts as I could. I drew webs and drew angled bulleted lists in the margin. I could see her peering over at my page - and became aware of how wild I must look. She was proper, authoritative, and poised in a neat a-line dress - meeting me for the first time. My red hair was an untamed mane of curls, I sat in a pool of black lace and sparkle, my boots were orange, and my lips hot pink. Too much? Too soon? I snuck a crowded "r" in for good measure.
High-Intelligence and Messy Writing
Later, when reflecting on my mental notes, I remembered what someone had told me once. "Messy writing is a sign of high intelligence. It means your pen cannot keep up with your brain."
'Thanks a lot," I thought to myself, 'but my writing isn't messy.'
.... Yes, actually; it is messy. And when I don't know how to spell something, it gets messier and loopier as if to divert a reader to keep their eyes on their own page. "Danger, Danger - no readers aloud."
The Mad-scientist of Spelling
Spelling has never been my strong suit, and my writing has never been neat. It is loopy and changes directions and I still remember my teachers trying to get me to touch my letters to the line on the page. They float... like my mind (I live in the land of ideas).
If your writing is messy - take heart. It is a sign of a few things:
Emotionalism (are you kidding me!!?)
Autonomy - a desire to be judged on your own merits
So write. And write messy if that's what's in you.